Hmmm.

I just deleted an entire post I had started. It was loooooong, and I deleted it on purpose. All I was doing was hosting an on-line pity party. Then I was convicted. God always ruins my pity parties! ;)

There is a LOT of stuff I could complain about right now... A LOT- but why? Why give satisfaction to my flesh? Why give into my temptations of cynicism? WHY?! So I listened to the Holy Spirit that told me to delete that post- and I have to say I am quite glad I did. My whole attitude has changed by that one act. I can already tell that God is MUCH more pleased with my obedience rather than my pity party.

God is doing some things at the moment that I am excited about. I can't talk about them because He won't let me- but His will is going to be accomplished and I can't wait! Although I am absolutely TERRIFIED for His will to be done because I don't know exactly what it means for Dave and I and our future, I am excited. We just keep praying together that He would put us in the center of His heart and let everything else fall into place around us. Whether it be our finances, relationship, future, jobs, church, ministry, or other things we just want to be where He wants us, doing what He wants. Like I said- it's terrifying because we think there are going to be some big changes coming (like Dave going back to school) but we are excited. There is a sense of coming change and I can't wait to see how it all turns out.

I pray that if any of my friends that read this blog are dealing with frustrations, heart ache, confusion, or even cynicism (like me) that you turn it over to God and let HIM be your advocate. Let HIM fight your battle, let HIM heal your heart, let HIM make the changes and the choices- you will be so much happier for it.